Here is my story.

As early as 4 years old I complained about neck pain to get out of some skipping rope activity. What I could not have predicted, is that this would lead to a parent fighting nail and tooth to diagnose me with health problems I did not really have. The result? Many x-rays, MRIs and countless hospital visits - wearing a foam collar around my neck for 8 years throughout my childhood that I didn’t need. Up until the point that it actually caused some health issues, and many social limitations as a kid. What probably affected me the most from that experience - was having my own internal sense of right and wrong being taken away from me. I was made to doubt my own internal feelings and deeper intuition. 

My home was emotionally volatile and dissociation became my backbone. It got to the point that people would call my name and I wouldn’t hear them at all. I was even taken to an audiologist - only to show my hearing was just fine - it was just an adaptive response.

I was isolated a lot from others, and spent most of my time inside of our hoarders house. There were spending issues, and our house was full to the point that you couldn’t eat at the table, walk up the stairs, or cook in the kitchen without it being burdened by stuff upon stuff. It mostly created this massive shame around receiving… and just existing in general. There was obesity in the family, poverty mindset, alcoholism, and a parent with a few scary psychotic episodes. As a young kid - and teenager I felt disconnected from the world around me. And pushed my way through life. The worst part was that I was treated poorly, while also told the things that happened to me were my fault. It created mass confusion and guilt. Later attracting manipulative relaionsthips without even realising.

I was a prodigious young musician, but with such low self worth, extreme learned helplessness, perfectionism, and feelings of unworthiness I absolutely blocked myself from moving forwards. I started a University degree in music and switched into Psychology, eager to learn about  why I was suffering so badly. And how to make it stop. Everyday I felt like a different person, inconsistent, I cried frequently, hated myself, and didn’t know how to make it stop.

At just 15 my Doctor gave me antidepressants. After some traumatic incidents, diagnosed with PTSD, then even worse. I was offered heavy medications - but it felt like the wrong path to me. I was so frustrated because I knew there had to be a better way. The diagnostic system I learned in school would quickly diagnose symptoms into a category and throw some cognitive talk therapy techniques, and meds onto the problem.

I was a social worker - I experienced first hand exactly what was going on in the system. In clinics, youth shelters, group homes, hospitals, and in primary mental health care. Society around me felt fake, with all my questions left unanswered.

I sold my car, left my room rental, and lived out of a backpack for 8 months. I knew deep down that my emotional reactions were outside of my conscious awareness - preconditioned responses to familiar environments. My plan was to leave and not to come back until I fully changed.

From that point I travelled across South East Asia, Greece, Albania, Morocco, and some Europe. I stayed with families, went to meditations centers, did many psychoenergetic trainings, and spent a lot of time visiting mosques, reading scriptures, and studying courses online to deepen my understanding. 

I connected many bits and pieces to form a very holistic understanding of who we are and how we function. I’ve invested thousands upon thousands of dollars to learn some of the most unique techniques in behavioral psychology, neuroscience, energy healing, psychology and mindset, combining it with travel, education, and personal experience and understanding.

From here, I got a full ride Master Clinical Psychology scholarship in the city of my dreams - in Hungary. I did my deepest healing ever - and transformed my feelings of worthiness, my health, my fitness, my looks, my energy, my joy. People know me for my calm presence, my unconditional love, and playful nature. Constantly smiling, joyful, experiencing life with deep love and gratitude. I'm surrounded by loving friends and family.. and for once in my life I really feel enough, excited every single day, in flow doing what I love.

In Hungary, I began working right away with clients, in my city and across the world. Quickly shifting them out of any emotional pain, challenge, pattern, block, trauma, overthinking, anxiety, procrastination, health problems, and regret. I believe that everyone is a pure light who adapt to their environment over time and develops conditioned responses and ways of being that are outside of their awareness. I see so much untapped human potential around me. People acting out of alignment with their true selves - unaware of their true values.

It's not their fault. Humans are designed to copy others and follow along. Its a mix of our neurology and needs to fit into a tribe. I encourage everyone to invest in themselves. Become more coherent and clear. Get to know your higher self, your deeper feelings, and really step into your fullest potential. Everyone is capable with this level of support and understanding to back them up. If working with someone for physical or mental health challenges - or personal patterns in relationships, work, manifestation or money - you can book a free consultation and I can help you to see whether this work or something else is a good fit for you.

With love,

Melissa